Avni's POV

" Then don't you think it is high time that you just start doing it again?? " He said and I really felt very annoyed.

Who was he to say that? I didn't like his interference. I was astonished that I was quite angry with him because I had thought that I was not able to feel anything anymore.

But he was not wrong... Even my recent thoughts and feelings on the subject had been almost similar only just last week, I had started to wonder if I should start going to riding club again. My anger died out...

Even Avanti, my sister, was pushing me to do that. Maybe my sister and this gentleman were right. I must go there. I think, I must make an effort... And this was the right time.

" Umm... Do you really want to see the place, where John worked and we both met for the first time?? " I asked him and he smiled and nodded.

He was looking at me with his beautiful blue eyes. John had blue eyes too. But this one had many shades of blue. They were drawing me towards their depth just like an ocean.

" Yes, I want to... " He said.

I didn't know, why I agreed to do it. I was feeling miserable about doing it. I clenched my hands tightly and fought to find the courage I would need desperately. I had to do it.

" The school will be over in about an hour, we can go there after that. " I said, he smiled and nodded.

" I will meet you here, after about an hour. Bye !! " He said and then left.

I went back to my class and started the interactive story video on the projector and while the kids were enjoying the story, I was thinking about the man I just met.

The class got over and with that, the school timing was over too. The parents started coming to pick up their kids. I saw Robert standing near the main gate and was looking around. Just then our eyes met and he started coming towards me.

" Could you please wait?? I can't go till all the kids are handed over to their parents. "

" Of course, don't worry... I am free now. We would wait till their parents come. "

Two kids were still waiting for their parents. One of them was a new admission and it was her second day. While another one was the girl who gave me that flower and card in the morning.

The new girl started crying. I went to her and bent so that I was at eye level with her.

" Hey, cutie pie... Why are you crying?? Your parents must be coming. " I said to her but she kept crying. I opened her bag and saw her tiffin. She had not eaten much.

I made her eat all that. She kept crying but ate it all. The other girl was trying to cheer her up too. But then her mom came and she went away after hugging and kissing me.

The new girl panicked even more, so I picked her in my arms and started patting on her back to soothe her. She put her arms around my neck and hugged me hard. Just then I saw her dad coming.

" I am so sorry ma'am... I was held in the traffic. " He said apologetically.

" It's ok sir, but she got panicked. " I said and tried to give the child to her dad but she seemed to have fallen asleep in my arms. Robert came and removed her arms from around my neck.

His big and strong hand touched my neck and I felt a jolt kind of feeling.

The girl's father thanked me for taking care of her and I just smiled and nodded. He went away, I started picking up all my stuff.

" Ready?? " Robert asked.

" Yeah... " I said and we went to the riding club in his car. I was feeling very tense and strung up.

I saw my usual mare and went towards it. I was here after months, but I felt good to see it. I laid my face against its neck and the horse whinnied in approval. I don't know, for how long, I stood there stroking the mare. But felt really good from within.

I opened my eyes and saw the man who made me come here. I thanked him with a faint smile and wet eyes. He just nodded.

" Take a ride, you would feel even better. " He said and I decided to give it a try.

" But don't you have to go anywhere?? I mean you must be busy?? "

" No, I am not... I would wait for you. " He said and helped me to saddle up.

I did take a ride. I was feeling good after such a long time. I came back after about 30 minutes. He helped me unsaddled myself. I gave him a tour of the whole place. He kept asking questions about John and me.

He was really easy to talk to. He dropped me outside my home. I was still wondering if I should invite him to my home or not. but then I decided against it, as I don't know why, but I was feeling very shy of him all of a sudden.

He got out of the car came around to open the passenger door and I got out and stood by him on the pavement for a moment before saying goodbye.

" So?? What have you thought about my suggestion? Avni, please think that I need someone reliable to look after kids I can't trust random people. You are my family and I can trust the kids with you. They are your family too, so I think you must give it a try.

" I don't know... You are right at your place. But... "

" Think about it later on, when you are alone. Please think over it most carefully. Even if you feel you can come for only a short while say about 6 months, then also please let me know... just think about it. Think of the two very sweet children. They need your help."

I could not leave my father and go... So I was about to refuse.

" I am hardly ever there. Some weekends, I don't even make it at all so I would feel happy to know that at least a member of my family was there with kids and not some total stranger. I can't trust them with anyone. They are very precious to us. We can't be careless about them. We have already lost John, we need to take care of them. And as you said you like remote areas, you will literally have the whole place to yourself. Only the staff would be there other than the kids.

It all looked too good, I was tempted to say yes. But I had to think about my dad too.

" Ok, let me think about it. " I said and he smiled. He looked so good while smiling. He exchanged numbers with each other and he left.

I came in and kept thinking about it. I sat down and thought about everything that happened today. I did so many things that I had not done for so long. Was feeling very light from within.

I felt that I didn't die there that day with John. I was still alive. I had some feelings.

I prepared dinner and then decided to go and meet my sister and tell her about the offer John's brother gave me.

I reached her home and as the main door was open and as I was feeling very light from inside, I decided to startle her. It used to be my favourite timepass when I was a child. I used to do that with my mom and Avanti.

I went in and was about to startle her when I was shocked to see Avanti and her husband making out on the couch. Avanti was pinned to the couch by her husband and he was kissing her like a possessed man. They were literally engrossed in themselves.

I wanted to get away but I kept standing there. They both seemed to enjoy their time making out. They were moaning and I was just wondering that was it as natural as it looked.

Were they putting some kind of efforts to look as if they were enjoying or were they simply enjoying it?

I got embarrassed that I was looking at them while they were kissing and were literally all over each other. Aashish slipped his hand under Avanti's T-shirt and took it off her in a fraction of second. I turned my back towards them.

Oh, God!!!.

I was debating in my mind that should I stay and make them aware that I was here or should I leave them alone?